ok, i don't understand life...ok....ME

was complimented several times today online

then several times when i went out for a bit

not "i wanna be in yer pants" kinda comments

just matter-of-fact comments, repectful and friendly

i don't understand

when i hear/read comments like this i have to suppress the need to flee

god i wish i understood myself

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logic is my refuge, my heart is my enemy

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what a time to lament MY life

at least i have water/food/home