clintswan | My thoughts......random as it were

I love the USA.

I love Texas.

I love my friends.

I love my family.

trying to focus on love here, see?

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The hospital district that I work in has been on full alert since tues morning. We are pending disaster oncall right now.

I was bitter to the parents at triage today because their stupid children were not even sick. I was thinking "At least YOUR child is ALIVE" Not a good public relations attitude.

I'm scared that this is not over with. The Dallas Federal Reserve Bank and the Dallas World Trade Center could be targets...of which I live about 4 miles from. *shiver*

My Canadian friends are in disbelief yet some espouse superior values in their country. All I can say is .....nothing. I will not defend the US as it doesn't need to be defended. NO nation is a utopia. Nuff said.

I have fits of crying as I watch the TV. My brain tries to encompass the whole impact of yesterday's events and it shrinks from it.

People died. NOT peacefully. NOT timely. Many instantly. Many with thoughts of terror as their last. I cannot even begin to fathom their last moments. My soul has never felt so fragile.

The response of people around the world to this horror gives me hope. Our allies/friends/supporters/(even apposed advocates) have expressed sadness and well-wishes.

The dancing in the streets of palestine(purposely not capitalized) made me angry, then sad at their ignorance.

The implicit support of afghanistan(also - purposely not capitalized) to terrorists makes me angry - yet calms me as I pray that our military/political/economic response to this event is just and without hatred.

(I will admit that hate does burn in my heart-God help me I'm human and these were my country-people...innocent of direct action against the perpetrators of this heinous event)

I will, in truth, fluctuate between sad, hateful, and logical thoughts for a while....

BTW G.W.Bush is a horrible speech reader......and it only became more evident today.

To all that read these thoughts. You are in mine. The first thing I did was to check to see if all things were okay with the lot of you.